1.23.2003

Station No. 27

The knock on Rosa’s door surprised her nearly as much as seeing the face of her visitor when she peered through the curtain at the front door. She had not been expecting anyone, and at Rosa’s age, with her friends relatively infirm, nobody stopped by unannounced. Except today.

It was Charles. “What on earth?” she said out loud. She could think of no reason he would be visiting, unless it was to express his displeasure upon finding out that John had been stopping over to see her. John had become a regular visitor, at least twice a week, for months now. Rosa had enjoyed the visits and the conversation, thinking how much John reminded her of her own son, long ago.

“May I come in?” Charles said, with that exaggerated loudness which people often use when trying to speak to someone through a closed window or door.

Rosa opened it as she answered, “Yes, please do. May I get you some tea?”
“Yes, please,” Charles said, rubbing his hands together in a furious way, trying to warm himself against the unseasonably bitter winter.

She shuffled to the kitchen, her slippers nearly skating across the linoleum, to heat some water. All the time she was curious, intensely so, as she wondered what could be the reason for this visit. Charles had been very obvious about his avoidance of Rosa for months, and it seemed ages ago that he has come over at her invitation for a pot of tea.

Charles was aware his visit would seem out of place, especially given the way he had been treating Rosa. But he felt as though it might be a good thing, actually, to visit with her. For weeks he had been talking with Jason about his big questions, life, the chaos and unmanagability of things, now he needed to put those things aside and talk about something less heavy. He was aware John had been visiting Rosa, and, although he was skeptical at first, he had come to believe that it was good for his son. He thought it was something Rosa should know.

“I want to start by saying thank you for befriending John,” Charles said, his voice shaking much more than he thought it would. Something of the reality of just how unkind he had been to Rosa was dawning on him and it unsettled him to see her calmly staring back at him with her little brown eyes.

“You mean —” she started, then caught herself, realizing she had expected the opposite from Charles, “You mean you’re not angry?”
“No, not at all — I mean — at first, yes, but not now,” Charles stammered.

The two talked for a while, then the whistle on the tea kettle broke the conversation, and they switched to less serious matters. Over a pot of Ceylon, Rosa and Charles put their wits together to complete a crossword.


1.22.2003

i weep today for millions lost . . . for the false solutions which only serve to increase our pain and strife . . . for beauty which is spurned . . . for death eclipsing life.

1Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb 2down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. 3No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him. 4They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. 5There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever.

17The Spirit and the bride say, "Come!" And let him who hears say, "Come!" Whoever is thirsty, let him come; and whoever wishes, let him take the free gift of the water of life.


Selected verses from Rev. 22.

Let us all drink from the river of life.



1.21.2003

There Once Was A Man

There once was a man who decided to fly
To planets and stars in the far-away sky.
So he built him a rocket, crafted with care;
Worked many long hours to try and get there.

He toiled without ceasing, he toiled without pay;
Nothing could quench his great thirst for that day.
The days and the nights ran one into the next,
The ache in his back? No, no, it did not vex.

Then finally came the launch day awaited,
Excitement and hope would not be abated.
When blasting off into the sky, he looked back,
But gave no salute for he thought them all hacks.

The sky seemed to go on and space seemed so huge,
He started to wonder: "Just what is the use?"
He started to wonder: "What am i thinking?"
"So many planets and stars out here blinking."

Then the passion which stirred turned to a big chill,
The rocket seemed suited to find a landfill.
He scuttled the ship and returned to his home;
The dream was more fun than actually go-ing.

1.20.2003

Quote

This is something cool is saw at Josh Sargent's site. i have no experience with the book it is from, but i like the sentiment.

"It becomes more than obvious the longer you walk with God that His teaching enviroment for us really is life. And allowing us to fail is not a punishment from God, but a part of God's process for shaping who we are. It is not cliche to say that the road to greatness is paved by failure. Those men and women who would seize every divine moment must be willing to embrace failure as a part of life. Not as a part of existing. You can exist without ever failing, but you can't live without facing it."

Looking for wisdom . . .

i have been convicted as i read through Proverbs about all the many ways a man can be a fool, and the consequences of actually being foolish. These few verses from Pr.18 hit close to home.

2 A fool finds no pleasure in understanding
but delights in airing his own opinions.

6 A fool's lips bring him strife,
and his mouth invites a beating.

7 A fool's mouth is his undoing,
and his lips are a snare to his soul.


Again i see i am not so much reading the Bible as the Bible is reading me.