11.01.2002

Station No. 14

Rosa sat with her hip aching, moreso as the evening wore on, and a burning crossword question. She thought more and more of Charles, he did not seem well. The events of earlier that day, the frantic pace and the collision on the sidewalk only reinforced her concern.

She picked up the phone to call him. Ostensibly, the reason for the call was to ask if Charles knew a
five-letter word for solitary.

Charles’ answering maching kicked on and, when the beep sounded, Rosa was dumbstruck. She hated leaving messages on those machines; she always felt as though she had no idea what to say. It seemed silly to talk to a machine as though it were a real person. Rosa stammered and them hung up without leaving a message.

It was then she heard a lound banging toward the back of her house. It was a peculiar sound with which she was unfamiliar. Her hip hurt, but her curiosity — which had increased throughout her years — was strong enough to get her out of her chair and look out the window. There, by a lone outdoor light shining from the back eave of his house, was Charles chopping wood. What perplexed her most about the scene was not the fact that Charles was completely ill-dressed for the task — wearing nice slacks and leather dress shoes — but the fact that Charles had no fireplace in which to burn the wood itself. Rosa was also able to hear something else in addition to the banging. Charles was grunting and cursing.

Rosa threw open the window. After persistent shouting, she finally got Charles’ attention. He stopped, turned and yelled: “What?”
“I was wondering what you’re doing,” Rosa said in as cheery a voice as she could affect.
“What does it look like I am doing?” Charles replied indignantly, returning to his chopping.
“I can see you are chopping wood, but you don’t have a fireplace,” she said, unfazed by his cross attitude. She had to yell again because Charles had resumed his loud work.
“So what?” Charles shot back over his shoulder, not stopping.

Rosa was now being much more of a pest to Charles than she had been previously. But the degree to which he was bothered was more the result of his bad temper than it was the result of anything odd on Rosa’s part. It was quite a normal question to ask a man why he was chopping wood when he had no place to burn it.

“Are you feeling alright?” Rosa ventured.
“I am fine,” Charles screamed, slamming the axe into a log. It was pretty clear to Rosa that Charles was looking to get out some of his anger and aggression and the wood pile was serving that need. But Rosa could also sense that something was not right, that Charles was caught in some sort of web.

Gesturing wildly with his hands, Charles thundered at Rosa: “Would you please leave me alone?”

10.31.2002

Station No. 13

It had been one of those days for Rosa. She had experienced highs and lows, laughter and tears. Presently, she was cozied up with the daily crossword and a pot of Assam at her side. Her hip was still a little tender from the collision she had earlier in the day when, quite literally, she ran into Charles.

He was in a frantic rush as he came towards his house, and Rosa was deep in thought contemplating the finer points of the fallen leaves at her feet. Rosa went tumbling and the grocery bag erupted, eggs and produce hurtling through the air.

Charles gave a curse under his breath, said he was sorry and actually started to leave the scene with Rosa still on the ground.

“I say,” yelled Rosa in shock; not only at the fall she had taken, but also at Charles’ apparent attempt to escape. Charles said nothing, but reached down to help Rosa and gather the groceries. The eggs were a total loss, but the oranges, lemons and lettuce were safe.

The whole thing had happened so quickly it wasn’t until later that Rosa really wondered if Charles were doing well. He had seemed so troubled lately. And the collision had come at the end of what was a rather good day, overall.

Rosa had enjoyed a brief conversation through the door with Sam the mailman. They chatted about the weather, and Rosa asked him what kind of shoes he wore to keep his feet comfortable with all the walking he does. Sam smiled at the gesture, and told her his feet felt quite fine.

Then there was the train ride into the city and a little bit of shopping, with the obligatory looks from the other passengers and shuffling in their seats as Rosa attempted to strike up a conversation. The conductor smirked at the whole thing and rolled his eyes when, yet again, Rosa’s rail pass went missing. She finally found it just before her stop, much to the conductor’s consternation.

While shopping, she went into a record store to buy a gift for her nephew, but was unable to find anything suitable. Even the sales clerk was of little help. Rosa was looking for a CD by — was it Charles Hingis, or perhaps, Martina Mingus? Rosa was unsure of the right names, her nephew's enjoyment of tennis and jazz had gotten jumbled in Rosa’s mind. The attendant — who had a fond appreciation for the likes of Bon Jovi — was confused. Even if Rosa had gotten the name right — Charles Mingus — the attendant would not have been familiar with him.

Reformation Day and All Saints Eve

The Church calendar recognizes Oct. 31 as Reformation Day. We mark this day as being when Martin Luther nailed his 95 theses to the door of the church in Wittenberg.

For more thoughts on the Reformation, visit here. A Mighty Fortress is Our God, indeed. And no, the music for this classic hymn was not taken from a tavern song (see below).



10.30.2002

The implications of telling the truth and telling lies cannot be overstated. God's very essence and character are Truth. Scripture is filled on every page with the sharp contrast. And, ultimately, it's a choice between Kingdoms, since Satan is the Father of Lies.

Underscoring this reality is Joshua 24:15 which says: But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.

David tells us in Psalm 51 that God desires truth in the innermost parts. If that isn't just a little convicting, i don't know what is.



i keep taking that Charlie Brown quiz which you can visit from Valerie's site and each time, no matter how hard i try, i end up being Charlie Brown. i don't want to be him . . . i want to be somebody funner.

10.29.2002

Wide awake for the first time.
Desperation, change at any cost.
Clues at the scene of the crime.
Looking for the truth which was lost.

Between thieves on trees;
Between Hope and Fear;
Unseen, the soul set free.
The Voice we long to hear.

The sweetest thing to my soul?
The sweetest thing to my soul?

i am warmed by your flame.

Wide awake for the first time.

10.28.2002

i stand corrected

It appears i have believed a popular myth, perhaps it is the Evangelical equivalent of an urban legend. Many, many, many posts ago, i mentioned my belief that Martin Luther had used a tavern tune as the melody for A Mighty Fortress is Our God. This site and others produced on a Google search indicate that i was mistaken. Apparently i was in good company, for what that's worth, based on a common misconception.

My thanks to Valerie at kyriosity for initially challenging me on it. i am now ready for a slice of humble pie.

Station No. 12

Charles squirmed. He hated the way life seemed to sneak up on him and pounce when he was least ready. Was Jason going to end up being the sort of pest Rosa had become? Why was everybody so interested in his story?

If he had been asked, Charles probably would have said that many people wear their emotions on their faces or in their tones of voice or in various non-verbal forms of communication. What Charles was yet to learn, however, was that he oozed pain and confusion in every aspect of his being. From the deep scowl he wore on his face most days, to the shrill tone of his voice, Charles exuded anger. In his critical comments and frequent rolling of his eyes, he announced a frustration with people which was rooted in arrogance. And his arrogance was fueled by his growing conviction that life had been brutally unfair to him. Whether he said it out loud or it just say silently in his mind, Charles was constantly, defiantly asking: "Why me?"

Jason's gaze had not wavered, nor had the quality of it changed. Charles could not look at him, and his eyes jumped throughout the room, flitting from a painting to a menu to the crumpled newspaper on the table next to him.

"Well, maybe some other time," Jason said, throwing Charles a lifeline.
"Yes, yes," Charles blurted out, "another time." He grabbed his coat to leave and paused to drop a few bills on the table to pay for his drink and a muffin.

Jason held up his hand and said, "This one's on me."

Embarrassed, Charles muttered something under his breath and looked away. It's a strange thing how a man so vulnerable and in need of compassion can be so undone when receiving the very thing he needs. An act of generosity carries with it a certain degree of intimacy, not least of all the admission by the recipient that he actually is, at that moment, weak and in need.

Charles felt anger starting to well within him, though he knew not why. He had become so used to saying life had been unfair, that he had gotten much too comfortable with that argument. Now, in the face of kindness, there was no room for anger and it seemed to fluster him even more. Rosa's visit with the banana bread could have been interpreted as kindness, but it seemed to Charles more of a ploy by Rosa, so he dismissed it. With Jason, it was another situation altogether.

He was uncomfortable. He rushed out the door.